Some Type Of Way

Watching  'Everybody's Fine' and it just got to the part where Robert DeNiro calls home to hear his wife's voice on the voicemail. It made me realize that I don't have any voicemails from Will saved on my new phone, and  I turned into a blubbering baby.  When he returns, I'm going to need a sappy voicemail pronto. #milspouseprobs

Listening  to the little voices in my head. {Never a good thing}

Feeling  Some type of way. Definition - A phrase meaning one is unable to express the complexity of the emotion at the moment. Can be used seriously or in jest. I blame it on Will being gone. I can function just fine without him, but he's my best friend, confidante, coach, entertainment, and lover. It's a good thing that I've already made friends here.

Wanting  to go to the beach so bad. It being Thursday and all, here are a few pictures with my bestest doing what we do best. Which is not just playing with random island children...

Eating  a mostly Alkaline Eating Plan. Notice I say 'Eating Plan' and not 'Diet'. This is for the purpose of digestive health, not weight loss. I need more fruit and veggies in my life anyways.

Drinking  coffee with almond milk and honey. I'm trying to cut back or cut out fake sugar, and ditching it from my coffee will be huge. Tomorrow, I'll be trying to forgo sweetener altogether.

Needing  Answers. My face issue seems to be doing better, but that's because I've changed my skin regimen, stayed out of the sun, stopped working out, and completely changed my diet. Yep, it's as awful as it sounds, and now I have to figure out which of those things causes the reaction. I did blood work last Thursday to test for food allergies, and in the mean time, it's trial and error. You were all so kind saying that I looked good in the pictures the last time I talked about it, but that was a good day. If I showed you pictures of the full blown 'reaction', you would know I wasn't over exaggerating. At least I'm mentally handling it better the last two weeks. I even had a swollen chin from pms hormones, and I didn't bat an eye.

Trying  new products, while simplifying my skincare regimen. It would be nice to be able to wear make up, but at this point, I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to wear make up again. I've never liked wearing foundation, so now I feel like if I start, I'll never be able to go without it. It's a vicious cycle. Does anyone have a natural/organic/non-comedogenic/oil-less lotion that they use? I've loved Clinique's Moisturizing Gel for years, but I'm trying to get away from the chemicals. We eat chemicals, drink chemicals, put chemicals on our face, and then wonder why we have all these problems we've never had in the past. Great job, FDA.

Desiring  My delicious husband. D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S.

Thinking  about my to-do list of things I want to do while Will is gone that keeps growing...

Stain furniture                                                                                        Decide on a new coffee table
Backup pictures on my external hard drive                                  Patch Will's shorts
Take donations to the church                                                              List clothes to sell

Apply for Sub Ceritfication                                                             Plan Dustin coming in town

I may not have big plans for the fourth this year, but we plan to fully enjoy our time after SERE and show Dustin a good time. He's one of our very best friends and I haven't seen him in FOUR years. I'm going to squeeze the shit out of our hilarious, wonderfully handsome, and larger than life amigo. Only three weeks!

Everyone PLEASE be safe for the Fourth. My cousin was killed by a drunk driver walking home from the fireworks a few years ago. Don't drink and drive, don't be a passenger if someone is drinking, and watch out for other vehicles. Too many people have been affected by this in my life lately, so don't add to my list. Okay, off my mom box. It's not my fault, my 'child' is gone. Just have a good Independence Day, and don't forget the meaning!