Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Not Every Day Is Perfect

Part 1: I'm getting needy.
Unfortunately, it happens every time Will is going to be gone for an extended period of time. I've already complained once about him leaving for a month, so I didn't plan on complaining on le blog {at least until he was actually gone}, but it's the truth. I get needy when he's about to leave, and this time is no different. I cried yesterday because he didn't walk to warm up with me before our run. WTF? I swear I'm not PMS'ing. Luckily, Will knows me better than I know myself. At first he was a little confused at my sullen demeanor and weepy tendencies, but soon he was cuddling with me and telling me that it's okay that I get a little extra needy in times like this. The following is a real convo from last night.

Will: I don't tell you enough how much I appreciate what you do for me.
Me: Yes you do, even though I {jokingly} tell you that you don't.
Will: I just want to make you proud.
Me: You do, everyday. That's why supporting you is my favorite job in the world.
Will: Good, 'cuz I pretty much demanded it.

Part 2: Cancer Sucks
It's funny, I started a random 'serving' job six years ago, and now I'm understing just how much a part of me it has become. As I type this post, I just can't wrap my head around the fact that my old boss friend Lags, lost his battle with Cancer yesterday. Everyone is devastated because he was so incredibly full of life, one of those people who put everyone before himself, and this world truly was a better place because of him. Hooters wouldn't even be what it is today without him, and he's definitely one of the main reasons I stayed with the company so long.

He's the dude on the right. Looks like a normal guy, right?

He was one of five that started the South Florida franchise, and established himself as a part of Hooters {and basically a generation} of history.  He and the guys took me under their wings {no pun intended} and gave me opportunities that I never would have dreamed that a job could give you. They earned my loyalty to the brand over these years, and every time I pass a Hooters I will remember him.

Part 3: My vanity is now showing.
After reminiscing through old pictures with Lags and the gang, I'm now sad that my hair was {naturally} that blonde, and miss my year 'round tan from Florida living. I wouldn't trade being with Will for the world, but it would have been nice to keep my hair color as a consolation.

I promise, I'm not looking for an ounce of pity after this venting session.
I just want to remember that not every day is perfect, we lose time with the ones we love, and have to say 'so long' or forever good byes whether we want to or not. All we can do is hold our loved ones tight while we can, and make sure they know that we love them. You can never overuse 'I'm proud of...' or  I love you'. Hopefully we will be back to regularly scheduled programming on Friday! Until then, 'I'm proud of you!'


21 comments:

Kristine said...

I can totally relate to this. A lot of people sugarcoat their lives on their blogs, but I am all about people who get "real" about things. Love this post woman!

P!nky said...

Sometimes, it's just good to vent and get things out in the open. And it's totally okay to be needy and sad when your love is leaving for a month, that's some tough stuff.

So sorry about your friend, cancer is the devil and we need to find a cure ASAP!

I <3 you friend and your outfit is ow-ow hott!

Mandie said...

There is no shame in venting whatsoever & if you can't do it on here, where can you do it?! Let it flow, girl, & remember tomorrow is a new day. Hugs!

Helene in Between said...

i don't think you're asking for pity, you're just talking about how you feel! i think i get like that when michael leaves too, i get more needy! and cancer really does suck, i'm so sorry to hear that.

Kathy @ Vodka and Soda said...

when my husband left for the weekend, i was like: NEVER LEAVE ME when he came home because it was hard being a single parent for 4 days! so i can't even imagine being away from him for a month!

and this is your blog - you write what you want! everyone is allowed to have a bad day/week - it's normal and you're human.

-kathy | Vodka and Soda

Courtney B said...

Girl, if anyone deserves to vent, it's you! You've been through A LOT in the last little bit and last couple of years! That doesn't make you weak or anything like it :)
I'm so sorry about your friend, Lags. Cancer just sucks bad :(
And I hope the month flies by while Will is gone. You are always welcome to come to Utah and play. Mia and I will keep you SO busy ;)

Jen said...

No reason to sugarcoat things, life happens! Hugs!

Kenzie S said...

Everyone needs to vent sometime, and you have every right to! Life sucks sometimes. I'm proud of YOU for being so strong through so much, for always looking at the bright side even when it is almost impossible. I don't even have a good reason to be needy, and I am horribly needy (I actually feel bad for John.. yikes). Also, I am so so sorry to hear about your friend Lags. Cancer sucks :(

Jamie @ You Gotta Have Hart said...

Cancer does suck!! I had a VERY scary moment this week-- still am. My Mother has Melanoma in my lymph nodes, she's had the most horrible and toughest for of chemo that is available (Interferon). Her Father has it, her brother has it. Her Aunt has it and will probably die from it as well as a few other types of cancer and her Mother died from it and other forms of cancer. (Damn Irish & Redheads)
I use sunscreen.. I do, but I will admit that I have a lackadaisical attitude about it all, I've had numerous testing/biopsies, etc-- with that being said, two weekends ago.. I sat outside with my best friend (for a hour) and got sun on my chest. Normally it wouldn't bother me and I would chalk it up to the first sun of the year. Her chest peeled and mine didn't. At the beginning of the week, I began getting a rash on my chest, almost like pimples. It's not something that feels like I am going to peel- I'm not. Days later, it feels like ant bites that burn. While I was only out for a hour and the sun wasn't that bright.. and I haven't peeled, something is really wrong with my chest and now I have to go to the dermatologist. I'm scared-- could I have really done something to myself that could hurt me? It's been two weeks this weekend and it hasn't gone away. It's so very painful and I can't mention it to my Mom, who is a long time nurse. Was I really so selfish and unthoughtful? UGH

Kerry @ Till Then Smile Often said...

A venting session is good for the soul. Being away from Will for a month does sound rough considering how close you two are so completely understand you being sad. Sorry sorry to hear about your friend and old boss.

Cece said...

I'm getting kind of needy too so I know how you feel. My soldier is leaving very soon and it's making me very sad. So sorry to hear about your old boss. Cancer truly does suck.

Eva Marie Taylor said...

I get sad when Chris works the night shift and is away for 12 hours let alone a whole month! :( and cancer really does suck! My dad ended his battle with cancer a little over 2 years ago and the world really was a better place with him in it, too. But hi legacy still lives on as I'm sure you feel about Lags.
Eva Marie Taylor

reccewife said...

I always get needy when Dh is getting ready to leave. Its so nice when they realize what our issue is and just let us get through it :)

♥ ♥ Just a Girl in Love w/ a Soldier ♥ ♥ said...

Thinking of you my sweet friend!!! Hang in there, life isn't always easy but God doesn't give you more than you can handle even if at times it seems that the world is melting around you.

Broke and Bougie said...

Everybody's gotta vent sometime! Totally feel your pain on looking back at old pictures - man I used to be so tan and have such perfect hair back in the day! but I really didn't even appreciate it

Megan Wadsworth said...

Thinking of you!! At least you're off in a school setting where you'll get a little more time both to yourself and together and you missed another deployment by weeks! :)

Brittany said...

So sorry about your friend and old boss. It's never an easy thing to go through.

Susan Payton said...

Blogging around and found your blog. My husband is 20 years retired Air Force. I wish I could tell you that your deployments will get easier. But years ago they were called TDY's and to me they never got easier. But being retired military now well the benefits and retirement check well yes it was all well worth it. Hang in there. Thanks for letting me visit.
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Rach @ This Italian Family said...

I would be more than a little needy if Christopher were about to be gone for a month too!

Nicole said...

I would be needy too. I find myself more needy right now being pregnant. At least you have a loving husband who is completely in need of you and your support too!

Ashleigh said...

Sweet girl there is no shame in venting at all.. Sometimes it is needed & for you this is one of those times.. As well its ok to want more love, attention, & affection when will is going to be gone for a month. Hang in there sweet girl!

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